Happy Halloween!

I went on my very first ever Trick-or-Treating adventure.

Caleb did, too!

He was so adorable. We really did have fun. We went to about 10 houses in the neighborhood. I am ready to throw the candy away...not because I am being a freak about it...but because Caleb is wanting to eat it all...NOW. :)

Got my CRV today...FINALLY! It's only been about 3 weeks! I love it. I've only been in it for about 10 minutes...but, it IS love at first drive. I'll have to post pics, soon.

In the meantime, here's my pix

and a couple of Caleb

and one of both of my boys.

(Caleb is wearing Brant's glasses at Olive Garden - what a weirdo!)

Anywho - Happy Halloween!

Changes

So, being pregnant the second time seems different.

I am technically 8 weeks (even though the ticker says 7 wks, 2 days). Whatever. I feel a huge difference in the lower part of my already poochy tummy. It's firmer and filling out. I put on some pants today...and had to take them right off. I could zip them, but NO WAY could I have gone all day like that. So, I opted for a skirt that makes me look 300 pounds. But is roomy. So, dad went with Caleb and I to Target and I got 3 pairs of (eek!) maternity pants. $80 down the drain. But, I got denim, black, and khaki. so, all the bases are covered. I have the maternity pants from being preggers with Caleb...but they are full belly...and HOT. I am not ready for that yet. Besides, these others are very stylish...I think.

My breasts are so heavy! Seriously! I am already moving into my BIG bras. It's not much of a difference size-wize...but they feel heavy. And hurt! Man they are achy in the morning. Maybe I should start wearing a sleep-bra...eek!

My face is like a war zone. Very broken out and dry. What the heck?! I am a non-zitter. I did this same thing with Caleb...just - eww!

I dread getting on the scale. It lies.

3 more weeks until I see Dr. Adams. I can't wait to hear the bean's heartbeat! I don't remember when I get to feel the bean. Maybe around 12 weeks? Thoughts?

I think almost everyone at school (save the students) know, now. I can't keep a secret. BP still wants to wait until we go to the doctor before telling his work. I want to SCREAM it out to everyone that will listen.

Anywho...that's all for now. Growing body = growing bean. and that's all good. Loves!

Yesterday, I was...

30 in the morning. By 3:30, I turned 31.

So, what changed?

My boobs hit the floor.
My butt grew 2 inches.
I have heartburn really bad.

Oh, wait. Maybe that's just because I am preggers!

:)

It was a nice birthday. BP brought me lunch and a beautiful bouquet of flowers. (BTW - He doesn't believe in flowers...so this is very nice!) Several of my teacher friends made me feel special by purchasing a HUGE balloon bouquet. THANKS! Another teacher friend brought a cake that I still haven't eaten...look for that addition to my butt on Saturday. :) Another teacher friend got me a real bag of goodies. A calendar, gel pens (I am a sucker for school supplies), a journal pad, and some stamps. Thanks Kristy! Dad, Caleb, Brant and I went to Ichibans (purr) for dinner. Dad got me a gift card to CATO...I love CATO...it IS my shopping weakness. Did I mention that I also have a credit card to that place?! He also got me/Caleb some Veggie Tales DVDs...to be re gifted at Christmas. Hmmmm... We then went out for ice cream at Marble Slab. Sweet cream with caramel and cherries is my other weakness. When we got home, Brant pulled out my gift. He did very good. He got me some silicon bake ware. That is exactly what I wanted. I can't wait to try it out.

Anywho...Caleb did good, sleeping in his own bed the entire night. Today is just Friday. I am just 31. and preggers! Still trying to get used to that idea.

Good Night! - Yes!

We had a good night -strike that - a GREAT night. No fight to get to his room. No fight to sleep in his toddler bed! Not awake all night! YES! Thanks for that birthday present, Caleb. Mommy totally loves it.

On another note - I had been sleeping with a full body pillow...to get used to it. And not sleeping much, my self. Did not use it last night. I, too, slept very well. Still woke up too early. Maybe it's the birthday jitters?

That's silly. Anywho. Off to check my measly my space page, too.

THE fight

I am tired.

Caleb and I have been "fighting" for a while now.

Fighting?! yes...fighting. I need him to sleep in his room. He refuses to sleep on his awesome toddler bed - that was his baby bed...one of those convertible types. So, when he started sleeping on the couch, we decided to get him the chair futon thing that I used to use in my 3rd grade classroom. He loved it. This weekend I helped him clean his room. Organized and put away toys...it's a really livable room now (the only one in the house). I turned his futon bed thing sideways, next to his toddler bed. Since then, he's been back to my bed or the couch. NO! I won't have it! I'm not sleeping well enough as it is! So, this morning, we've been "Fighting." I won. I think. The futon bed thing is now put up - out of reach. Caleb is passed out on his toddler bed...and I've only been up since 5. sleepy = me.

and hungry, too...but that's another blog.

Car washed...now rain

It never fails. I knew it would be cold today. So, I thought I'd help make it rain. I washed the Jeep yesterday. Got it all vacuumed out and everything. Getting it ready for BP to take over. (By the way - still no CRV, yet!)

Last night, I fell asleep to the lovely sounds of the coming storm. The rain is not sticking around, though. I wish it would stay this cold and rainy for a long time. I love this weather. The kind that a jacket is all I need to stay warm.

Others need coats...but they don't have as much fat to keep them warm, as I. :)

Odds and Ends

My first OB appointment is not until November 19th. While that might seem like forever to you, it feels like an eternity to me! By the 19th, I will be 11 weeks! That means that I will be nearly finished with the first trimester before I see the doctor! Does that seem crazy to anyone else?!

I've been so worried since last Friday that maybe I wasn't really preggers (which is unrealistic, I know), that I bought another test yesterday and peed on a stick at school. Okay, it was AFTER school, but I did it, anywho. THIS time, it was VERY bright and quite obvious. YES!

On Wednesdays, I go to Cheddar's with a couple of friends from school. I usually pick up Caleb and take him, just so I can stay longer with my buddies. Yesterday, I did the usual. One of my friends asked Caleb what was in my tummy. Without prompting, he said, "A baby!" I could not believe he actually grasped that concept! Oh my goodness!

Needless to say, I think it might be hard to keep the secret from day care...I wanted to wait until after my mother in law came down...after Thanksgiving. I am making a shirt for Caleb to wear to the airport that has his name on the front, and I'm the big brother on the back. He gets so dirty at school that I wanted an opportunity for it to be very clean for my mother in law, first, and then day care second. I might just have to find another way to tell day care. They are my friends, too. Hmmm...

Money

Money makes me crazy! Just as soon as you think you are all caught up and ready to pay off some other bill...a bill pops out from under the cushions, and is now past due! GRRRRR!!! Just needed to vent!

New...

Since we ARE finally preggers (YEAH!!!), Brant wants to get a new vehicle. Not NEW new, but something to exchange for the truck. It's 5 years old...we were the first and only owners, and it's out of warranty. So, Saturday morning we went around test driving and looking at cross-over SUVs. They are like small SUVs. We had already looked at the idea of a Honda Odyssey or a Grand Caravan (ewww! Mini-van! - so not what I envisioned ME driving), and decided that they were too big and expensive. I test drove the Honda CRV. Loved it. That's just the way it usually is with me. If there is a BIG decision to make - and I LOVE something - it has a way of just happening. So, we decided to see what the local people would offer us. After looking online for several hours, we decided the prices were exactly the same here as in Dallas, San Antonio, etc. So, against all I've ever said...we shopped locally for a car! We traded in our beloved, tripped out, truck for 10,500 (about 2 less than we really wanted to get) for a yet-to-be-seen (hopefully light blue) NEW 2007 CRV. I am so pumped! In the mean time, we are driving a used 2007 Honda Civic. It's neat. A hybrid. Meaning it has an auto-stop for the engine, every time we come to a complete stop. The AC still works, as does the electrical stuff, but the gas is not applied to the engine. I'm getting like - 35 mpg!

Anywho. We spent Sunday morning cleaning out the garage. We had cleaned out our vehicles numerous times and just left the box of junk in the garage. We had - rather I had - brought home much teaching junk that I hadn't touched in 3 years. So, the trash area is full...the trailer is now backed into my side of the garage with lots of garage sale type items...think I'm going to have to find a place for that. I HATE doing garage sales - LOVE going to them. We've got about an hours more work, and we'll actually be able to park 2 cars in our 2 car garage! YIPPEE!!! What a concept.

I got to watch the Cowboy game last night. Caleb and I went over to Laray and Chatta's house. Caleb played with Caleb and CB so hard! He didn't nap. Which was odd. But he fell asleep at 7:30 last night, at PaPa's house. No dinner. Not cranky. He just plopped down on the couch and fell asleep. ALL NIGHT! He usually gets up at 4 and I send him back to his bed. Then, he'll get up at 6 to wake us up. Not today! He's still out! We wore that little boy out!

So, my MIL is coming at the end of November - after Thanksgiving. We're not going to tell her about our new arrival until then. I bought a t-shirt and iron on letters for Caleb. I'm going to iron on his name on the front, and The Big Brother on the back. When we pick up Jean and Greg at the airport, I think that's how we'll tell them. I'll try to video tape it...send it to my sister in law in Wisconsin...so she can see it, too. That'll be awesome! I love surprising people with news like that!

Okay, it's time to get ready for another Monday at school. Duty. Yuck! Have a great day!

J - see you tomorrow at your shower! I can't wait to see you both!

Test

So...I totally really cheated. I peed on an equate stick yesterday. There was a light pink plus.

Went to Wal-Mart...got EPT ones. Peed in a cup...placed stick in cup...There was a light blue plus.

Peed on a stick - equate - a few minutes ago...Nothing came up.

This scares the ever living poo out of me! Can I really NOT take a pregnancy test accurately? Are you serious?

But, I know you can't get a false positive...so...I've called a few very close girlfriends (yesterday) and told them. Called seester. She needed the good news. She didn't get the singing job she auditioned for in Vegas.

This is how I told BP:
I got a Halloween container thing - with a lid. I put in there: Tums (which I know I will eat like candy...already need one this morning), the 2 preg tests in a Ziploc bag, covered that with tissue paper, on top of that was his favorite beer (because Thursdays are hard for him at work - he didn't even get home until 7:40...was due home at 7ish), a package of chocolate (because he's a chocolate LOVER), and a package of toothpaste (because I actually remembered to purchase he sensitive toothpaste when I picked up the other items on the list last night *grin*). When he FINALLY got home, I told him I picked him up a present. He said he'd open it later, he was starving. I said, "No, you'll open it now." So, he did and was excited about the top 3 items...started to walk away (having NOT lifted the tissue paper - what a guy!), and I said, "I think there's more." He lifted the side with the TUMS...perfect! He said, "Tums? Why?" I said, "I think there's more!" He finally found the two preg tests and turned around and said, "Really? (*poo eating grin inserted here*) Awesome!" Proceeded to give me a big smacker of a kiss and looked at my Dad (who was eating dinner as usual with us). I told Dad he was hired for the next nine months or so to empty the cat box. :) Brant REFUSES to do that.

Needless to say, the cat box did NOT get emptied...which it desperately needs. I guess I'll just wear a mask and do it myself. It's one of those roll over and empty itself kinds.

I AM worried about the lightness of the tests, and the non-existence of the test this morning. Guess I should call the doctor and set up an appointment? Get a blood test and all that?

If everything is as it is - we are expecting our little addition on or about June 16th, 2008! OMG! I am beyond excited and scared to death! This is totally what I/We wanted...but ... WOW!

I think I'll go try to lay down for a tiny nap for about 45 minutes, until my alarm goes off...then maybe I'll have enough urine to pee on the EPT one, again. Or, maybe I'll wait until tomorrow.


NAH! I don't think so! I can't believe I am finally pregnant! YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reminiscing

I was watching old movies today...being a bit nostalgic. I came across this one. It cracks me up! Caleb was laughing, too. Enjoy!

DVD player

is kaput. I think. It's NOT playing the movie, as requested by Caleb. That is NOT good. Plus, he's having to settle for Happy Feet instead of Cars...because Cars is currently MIA. So, we move to the living room, I guess. I can use the PlayStation 2...I don't really want to have to purchase a new DVD player.

Oh! I need to start collecting Veggie Tales movies on DVD. I have about 5 movies from when I was in college. They are VHS...and Caleb LOVES them. But, you can tell they are wearing out. Just a thought.

***edit*** Actually, it's the Happy Feet movie. It WILL NOT play! Oh well...we've had fun without a movie - imagine that!!

Message

I got the message!

No, not that one...

I decided to be sneaky and test last night...after a bit of prayer that went something like this: "God, if there is a reason I shouldn't test tonight, could you give me some kind of message...otherwise I would really like to test...and I don't know why! But I am compelled to test. Amen."

So, I peed on a stick. Thought I had to pee like a race horse. It was only about 3 seconds of urine.

And the test?

Yeah, the darn thing didn't have ANY lines show up. GRRRR!!! I got the message. I AM waiting until Friday morning to test again. This is despite the fact that I am home with Caleb this afternoon. He had a 99.9 fever and threw up and was being cranky and not like himself. However, since I've bathed him to get rid of that oh, so pleasant smell...he's doing great! He's dressed himself in my jewelry and is currently bouncing on my bed and waiting for me to find, "My Lightning McQueen Movie, Momma!" Check out the pictures that can be later used for blackmail...The last one is of him wearing the wig cover for my Fiona costume...I don't know why he wanted to open his mouth like that. Weirdo...2 year old...my kid. Ah! Make sense now!

I love my little boy in tighty whities. Only, I'd like to call them tiny whities. Anywho, I better go find that movie before ALL of the sheets are removed from my bed by a little bouncy 2 year old.

Only a few more hours...hopefully I'll know something good, then. I've NEVER been this late...EVER!!!

Waiting is SOOOO difficult!

I want to go buy a test.

NOW!

But, I said I'd wait until Friday.

WHY?!

Because I am cheap...and they are expensive...and I don't trust the $1 ones from Dollar General.

...and I'm impatient.

Crabby pants

I am the current owner of crabby pants. I hope that's not the sign that I'm about to start. Usually it is. I think it's more that the kids REFUSE to follow directions! Things like:

Write a procedure for blah blah blah...
THEN test your written procedure.

Instead they are just jumping in and doing whatever! GRRR!!!

Okay, enough. Positive pants will win. I will be happy so that I can foster a new Foster.

and stuff.

Not watching...

So, I think I am a bad luck charm this season for the Cowboys. It's got to be ALL me!

We were at Double Dave's actually being fans...watching the first 10 minutes or so of the game.

If you watched - you know how the Bills (who the Boys were supposed to cream) scored from an amazing run within the first few minutes.

I told Brant that every time I watch, they do poorly. - You have to understand that I am the football fan in my family. This is a major sacrifice to NOT watch!!! - after a second weirdly bad play, Brant said, "You have to leave the building."

So, we promptly got up and left dinner.

I didn't watch the rest of the game. I went to bed a little early so as not to be tempted.

And who pulled it out of their hineys? Yeah! The Boys are five and oh! And, I'm not watching.

October 8th...

This is a hard day for my little family. On this day, two years ago, my wonderful, loving, artistic, beautiful mother passed away. She was the most caring, thoughtful, loving person anyone has ever known. She loved being a sister to our Aunt Clara. She loved being our mom. She loved being my dad's wife, she loved being a grandmother. We called her "No-knee." It was such a term of endearment. She had both knees replaced just after Caleb was born, and Brant (who could do no wrong in her eyes) named her that when she decided to have it done. We miss her so much. I no longer wake up thinking she'll call, or that I can just drive the 1.7 miles to her house...but I don't remember her voice. I remember her smell. We can still go into her closet and smell her. She had the best laugh...and handwriting. She always knew what I needed to wear - which was exactly opposite of what she would pick out for herself. She gave the best advice without being overbearing. She was an artist. She painted so beautifully...I wish she could have had more time to spend doing just that. Expressing herself the way only SHE could do. I miss pinching the little bit of extra skin on her elbows. I miss tucking her ever-present blue dress into her ginormous panty line. I miss teasing her about Brant and I being intimate. I miss her smile, and her laughter in her eyes. I miss her helmet hair and perfectly manicured fingernails and toenails. I miss the way she just KNEW what to get us for birthdays and Christmas. I miss the way she would drink her Diet Pepsi from a huge Sea World glass...and have us fetch her more. I miss the way Max would only come out to be pet when she was alone with him. I miss having her watch us grow, learn, explore, and experience life. She was taken so fast, so soon, too soon.

Caleb and I "visited" her at the cemetery today. We stopped and ran our fingers over her name. We looked at the flowers that had been left, and the cat figurine that she would have loved. We prayed. Caleb repeated the important words after me. "...special angel...miss you...watching over us...keep us safe...amen...Can we eat?" Giggle and run.

Yeah, No-knee/Mom, that was for you. I see you smiling up there. I love you!

Quarantined

I put several of my friends on quarantine. Why? I don't want their pheromones talking to my pheromones. We've been on the same cycle - to the day - for a while. So, sorry if you are one of those girls that are quarantined...it's for my own good! :)

So far...no "Visitor" has arrived...keep praying. If I make it to Friday without a visitor, then we will test then.

Again, thanks for praying!

ONE line

So, this morning I woke up at 1:30.

I said I would wait until Sunday to test. It's Sunday at 1:30 AM.

Only ONE line.

Could mean that it's too early; that I have a bad test; any number of things.

OR - ... not.

Immediate depression hit, and HARD. I wanted my kids to be closer than 4 years apart. It's HIS plan, I know...but still...

Tomorrow is 2 years since my mother passed away, suddenly. Don't need any help with depression, right now. Thanks.

Keep praying, please...I still have some hope...

Tired/Lazy

Don't know why I am SOOO very tired today.

I was so lazy at school! I let my kids watch Magic School Bus. And they loved it!

I yawned, literally, all day!

Came home, napped with Caleb for about 30 minutes.

Just ate IHOP for dinner...Dad took "the boys" up to the shop to work on gun stuff...and I am going to bed. And it's 8:45!

Hmmm...yes, sleepy = very yes.

Costume Excitement!

Our costumes came in the mail today! I am SUPER excited. Halloween is my very favorite time of year! By far!!!

This year, Caleb is going to be "Puss in Boots."

No - say it the right way: (in an Antonio Banderas accent) "Puss (pause) in Boots!"


As soon as they came in the mail, Caleb HAD to try his on. He was SOOOO excited!

He wore it until I told him he couldn't swim in it...and that did it.

I will be a VERY overweight Princess Fiona - best part about it? No pink!!! :)

Eww! and other stuff

Yeah, so Monday night sucked!

I was up for almost the entire night. I spent 3 hours in the bathroom...in a seated position...in one way or another. I did loose 5 pounds of water weight - in one night!! Zapped my energy, totally! I actually took my first REAL sick day. I've taken days for BP, Caleb, funerals, Caleb's birth...but never for me. All I did on Tuesday was sleep and try to to repeat the process from Monday night.

Much better now! In fact, we had Franco's last night! Someone asked me today where that was, and what kind of food that was! WHAT?! Are you kidding me?! I (or rather everyone else) is paying for the fact that I ate the yummiest Mexican food ever, last night.

On another note. I am Suzy-baker...I baked 17 and a half cupcakes last night for a birthday for an adult at school. Big hit, I might add. Don't look at the fact that we are supposed to be talking about healthy eating and all that jazz at school. :)

Grades are almost completed...which is good...since tomorrow is the end of the six weeks. Some people didn't know to plan ahead and NOT plan the end of the six weeks test for the last day. Not me...just some people I know. I don't think they thought about that part of the planning. But, they learned...or not...the choice is theirs.

That's it...

No, wait! Caleb has been demoted to the 2 year old room. It's an awesome thing! He's only had ONE accident all week, and THAT was at nap time! Yahoo! Today, he actually woke up and went tee-tee on his own, and went back to sleep! Big steps! Hopefully, he'll keep up the dry-ness in the 3 year old room next week. We shall see...

Do I really look that bad?

Today, about 15 people asked me if I was okay. Why? Do I really look that bad?

Yes, Caleb was sick with ickies this weekend. He didn't keep me awake.

Do I look somehow more differenter? Fatter, for sure...in fact, add 25 pounds from last year...and you've got me, this year. YUCKY! I was hot this morning and couldn't get cooled off. Maybe my hair was odd? I dunno. But, I do know that I have peed more today than in a long time. Maybe that means something?

Like I drank a lot?

:) Keep fingers crossed and prayers there, please!